Returned

School is good, but it keeps me super busy so I haven't been doing much besides school, work, and squeezing in books and sewing and Internet when I can. I really like Chinese, especially, I was worried that maybe Japanese was just a fluke and I didn't have any sort of special talent for languages, but I am learning really quickly and doing really well. To me it seems really easy, except the tones, but that's just the pronunciation and everyone has trouble with those, but the writing and characters and grammar are really easy and I love learning it.

Japanese class is way too easy and I have no idea how some of the students even made it to 2nd year, since they seem to struggle with basic kanji and even read hiragana incorrectly sometimes, and don't know a lot of easy vocab that you learn in 1st year. But the teacher is really nice, I like her a lot, and I'm just studying extra kanji and getting in lots of writing practice. It's nice to be actually studying again.

Math is not too fun, I shouldn't have taken it. It got hard really quickly, and since I have the math I need and I'm not doing anything with math, I should have just taken something else. Too late now, though, so I might be getting my FIRST EVER C. AH NOES. Oh well it's college and as Ross said "Cs make degrees!" Ha. As long as I can get into library school I will be happy.

It is SO COLD in our house. I got a space heater a while back and it keeps the room nice and toasty warm except when the cats run in and out, which they do constantly. They like to whine at the door and wake everyone up and make us open the door and let them out, and then five minutes later they are back. They're so cute though so we have to forgive them, but it makes it even colder. I love my space heater though.

I had to spend some money on warmer clothes since I didn't even have a coat, and a lot of my sweaters mysteriously disappeared. So I got a wool coat (ugh but warm) and a couple of sweaters and warm pajamas for the house.

I need to get a new job. I can only work about three and a half hours a day since I have school, and that's not enough. I want to get a campus job so I can work until six or seven some days, and five or six some, and then work in between classes. It's mostly the money, but also the attitudes of some of the people who work there are really getting on my nerves.

Money, though. .The first check of the month goes entirely to rent and bills and I would starve if I hadn't gotten food stamps, so Brian and Marie shouldn't be condescending to me about it. NO I don't have any money, if I did would I be trying to get food stamps? The government has these programs for people like me. If they didn't, I wouldn't be here because that's how my mom was able to feed us when we were growing up since my dad was a lazy bum who couldn't hold down a proper job. Just because you have such fabulous parents who fed ALL FOUR OF YOU without EVER having to take government assistance, well, screw you. You don't know what it's like to be poor, and since you waste your food money on fast food and junk you don't know how happy it makes me to be able to COOK.

Unfortunately, they all had to sign the stupid paper saying that they lived with me, so I had to tell everyone stuff that I would rather keep private. Jim is great though, he's super nice about everything even though he makes fun of me all the time. I'm glad Brian decided to take the upstairs bedroom next to Marie because he's annoying enough all the way up there.

I really wanted to finish my comic today and read for a while but it's already so late I am just going to bed.

Pitfall

Everything goes good for a while and then all of a sudden a bunch of crap happens! I am still really happy that school is going to be starting soon, and then I won't be so bored all the time. Also I will work less hours and the time that I'm at work I won't be doing very much since there isn't too much to do, which means I can read and do my homework! It's really nice that I have such a good job right now. I don't get paid very much, but it's a good amount for what I do (which isn't much). I make more than I did at the library and it was fun, but I worked hard. Sometimes I work hard, here, too, when there is work to do, but sometimes there's nothing to do so it evens out.

The only bad thing about school is that I don't have enough financial aid to take 20 credits this quarter, since I have to pay a few bills, so I have to be content with 15 credits. Next quarter and the one after though, I can take 20 so I am looking forward to that.

Work is really busy right now though so when I work I am constantly working and I still don't get everything done. Hopefully it will slow down soon, that will be nice to have a break. It might be busy until I start school, and that's okay too, just I don't have very much reading time at work anymore. That's okay though, too, because the stool makes my back hurt when I read for a while.

The really bad thing is that my credit card bill is astoundingly high since I had joined a DVD club thing a while back and I should have just already canceled by now but I keep forgetting to call and cancel, and they sent a DVD that I didn't want because I didn't respond to the notification that they were going to send it soon enough, and so I was just going to send it back, but I never got it. So I go on to look, and this is the address they sent it to:

CRYSTAL RAYPOLE
801 1515 N AZR CRYSTAL ST
EDWALL, WA 98926

I have no idea where they got that ridiculous address from, but that's what they have. I also don't know how the bill went through, since that's also the billing address! But it did, and that is the problem. Since it was a month before that, it went onto my credit card just recently, which is at the limit, and so I got charged for the DVD, for the overlimit fee (39.00), and so now I have to pay my regular payment (15) plus the DVD (25.49) plus the overlimit fee (39), PLUS the payment protector fee (5) which got attached to my account somehow, I have no idea how since I never heard about it or requested it. Fantastic. I can't wait to pay off the stupid card and cut it up. Credit is nice, sometimes, but I'm going to keep the USBank one instead of this one, which was what I was going to keep, because I've never ever had any problems with them.

So now on Monday I have to call everyone and get it straightened out. I'm sure if I get the DVD charge erased, which I'd better since I never got it, their fault, and was going to send it back anyway, they'll take away the overlimit fee and that will all be taken care of. The crappy thing is that my payment is due on Tuesday! Which is the reason I found all this out in the first place, because I was checking my payment.

Money sucks. Everything should be free, or else the only things that people should be able to get, at all, are what they need and only that. Then everyone will be the same and have the same amount of stuff and just worry about more important things. Okay, that really wouldn't work so well.

Sleepiness

I like our new couch. Jim bought it from Jeremy. Brian thought Jeremy had just given it to him and I said no I'm pretty sure he bought it so it's Jim's couch and Jim said I could put my feet on it so there haha. I like squishy green couches. Brian's couches are lame. They are scratchy and old and smell like smoke and old. So now there is a squishy couch to sit on. It would be nice to do my homework there but I would only sit up there when Brian isn't there. Even though the living room belongs to all of us it's upstairs so Ross and I don't go there too much, all of our stuff is down here. The nice thing is that the couch is not in a good position to see the TV so that makes it a low priority seat.

I was going to look something up online but I can't remember what it was. I don't think it was that important but it's really bothering me. I'll probably remember it tomorrow but I want to look it up now OH it was jobs. I am tired of my job (no one is surprised at that) but just because of the people who work there. I don't know why I can't get along with people well enough to be happy for a longer time at jobs, but I really don't like people, at all, with a few exceptions. I don't even like Brian that much, and I live with him. I can't even think of twenty people who I'm not related/will be related to who I can stand to be around for any given period of time.

I wish I worked at Superior instead of Model because while Jenny's flakiness would get on my nerves after a while, especially if I was the one the customers got mad at for her mistake, which happens to Hope a lot, working with Hope is really fun. Jenny is nice, too, and she talks a lot and is friendly, which is more than I can say for the people at Model. They aren't mean or anything, they just aren't really friendly, except Liz, and she is the manager and old. I like her, though. Rick doesn't talk, but he's funny enough and nice enough when he does, and Lucy is nice but she's old too. Amanda is my age but I don't like her very much. She can be nice but she's usually just bossy and doesn't talk very much.

I will work this Friday at Superior, though, since Jenny will have the day off, so I'll get to talk to Hope and that will be fun. Then Saturday I can go to Uwajimaya to get my NEW SUPER CUTE glasses and I will put pictures up on my Facebook. I succumbed to pressure and finally worked on one, and I don't have that much stuff up but it's enough, I guess. I still think it's silly but I guess it's kind of fun.

I really need to find more stuff to read. I've been looking for book recommendations from LJ communities so I can have more things to read because I've read everything I can get a hold of that I know about and want to read.

Kitty ate my licorice. ??! What a weird kitty. He eats goldfish crackers, too. Hahaha. I love my cat, even if he pees on the bed and bangs on the door at night.

Anxiety

My hours got cut back at work so it seems like once again I'm going to be short on money.

I really want school to start. I'm getting bored and tired of waiting for it. Also, I really hope Dr. Nelson will approve me to take 20 credits or that I can find another counselor who will sign off on it. I don't want to just take three classes, that isn't enough.

I really need to stop eating out and go swimming at the pool again. I hate my fat legs and I hate it when my jeans are too tight.

Unfortunate

Don't die, Morgan Freeman! You can do it, hang in there, you're only 71, you'll go on to make many great movies, like the next Batman movie, and all kinds of other good stuff.

People are going to start to think someone doesn't want another Batman movie, or at least that they have it in for the stars of this one. First Heath Ledger dies, then Christian Bale is arrested, now Morgan Freeman is in a car accident. Pretty fishy.

Anyway.

Don't die, Morgan Freeman.

Relocation

Moving is teh suck. I hate packing and I hate boxing things and I hate cleaning. Well, I don't really hate cleaning, I just don't like cleaning up messes from other people, and the people who lived here before didn't do any cleaning when they moved out and since we just took over their lease, we have to do it all even though we lived here for only four months. It is super annoying but we have to do it to get the deposit back. All I will say is that Brian had better help and do his fair share of the work. He already made plans tomorrow, and can't help us move furniture, even though Ross specifically asked him last week to help us and he knew anyway that we were moving out Wednesday. He can be so inconsiderate sometimes.

I'm so tired from packing and moving stuff and setting things up. I really hate moving. I've moved so many times in my life, especially in the last few years, and I can't wait for the day when we buy a house and just stay there.

Infestation

It is official!~ We've been talking about it for a while but now it is for sure. Ross and I are going to get married next year on July 4th. (July 4th because every year we, well, I, can pretend that the fireworks are just for us!)

We went to the house today, it's really icky and old and there are lots of bugs. Marie has been saying that the bathroom upstairs is 'her' bathroom. Okay, whatever. I am going to go upstairs and take a shower there whenever I want to. Just because you happen to have a room upstairs doesn't mean you get to claim the best bathroom for yourself, especially when it's the only one with a tub. The downstairs bathroom is so bad. It's yellow-looking and there isn't any good light and it's got tons of spiders and stuff. I hate bugs. I'm not going to like living there. At least mostly I'll be at school and in my room and stuff. Probably I'll just come home every night and take a shower around 6 before anyone else is worrying about that and then it won't be a problem with other people's schedules, but really, that just isn't fair.

1234

Today is my dad's birthday, I suppose I should call him and say happy birthday but I don't want to. He is a complete and utter idiot and I'm really mad at him right now. He closed up his 'business' to drive down to Arizona and help out my mom, but when he vacated his apartment he gave the landlord an extra month's rent money, even though he wasn't going to be there at all and wasn't going to move back in or anything! What a waste of money. He said something about not wanting to leave people hanging and that if he wants to throw his money away, he can, which makes me so incredibly angry. I barely have money for bills and groceries and stuff I need and he's just doing stupid things with his money, even though he knew that I needed money (which I've never received). So I'm not speaking to him until he apologizes and sends me my money. Although he probably won't ever apologize since he doesn't think he did anything wrong.

I do have a little bit of money I could use from the savings account that my grandma made for me, but it's supposed to have $300 in it and it only has $177 right now, so I shouldn't, because I need to put $123 back in it anyway. Oh well. I'll just eat every random thing we have, not much, and then put off going to the store until I absolutely have to. We have some stuff to make but not very much and it's all missing some ingredients so I guess I'll be eating plain rice and plain pasta for a while. Being poor sucks! At least I have electricity and stuff like that though.

Aberration

Tonight we went to see the fireworks and now everyone is hanging out here in Moxee. Jarrett went upstairs to talk to Tsz, his girlfriend, and they are playing Soul Calibur with random characters. It's really funny to watch the weird combinations of armor and costume. Fireworks were really fun except for the screaming little girls next to us, and then the drive out which was really packed.

I paid the rent money to Ross, paid the minimum payment on all my credit cards, and then I'm out of money again. I'll have to use the money for glasses to get some groceries instead of buying the glasses, and then when I get paid again I think I can buy the glasses. I can wait a little longer since these are still usable. My prescription did change a bit so as soon as possible I should get them because that could explain the headaches I've been having. Of course it could be something else too since I hadn't gone to the doctor in a long time. I want to see about getting some low income insurance, but I have enough to worry about now. My ankle seems to be better so I won't worry about that for now, I'm sure it was nothing serious. I suppose I am a little paranoid, and it's probably because of the medical TV dramas I watch, but every time I have a weird symptom that's not easily explainable I always worry it's a sign of something bad. So I have to try not to do that so much.

Maybe I should try and get a second job, like a weekend job or something. I can't really get more hours at work, at least not as much as I would be wanting, so maybe I should do something just on Saturday and Sunday. Then I would be working seven days a week, though. I don't know if I could do that. I don't really do that much with my spare time right now, and sometimes I'm bored and just lay around playing flash games and looking at stuff online, but I would be really bored and tired at a job if I had to work that much. If it were a job where I had lots of stuff to do, that would be okay, but mostly the only jobs that I could do just on a weekend, at least in Ellensburg, would be fast food, and I wouldn't be able to ride my bike to the fast food places, at least not easily, and I hate fast food places anyway. So, I don't know. I wish there were more places in Ellensburg. I really hope I can work in the library when school starts because that would be weekends and extra money and I will need it then since I won't be working as much at the cleaners. If I don't get a job on campus, I won't have any money at all. I'll worry about that later though since I have enough things to worry about right now!

Dilation

No new Nijuu Mensou no Musume yet. Sad. I wish they would release it more accurately, some weeks it comes out on Tuesday and some weeks not until Sunday. I can't wait to watch the new episodes and I usually do right as they come out so whenever there is a big gap I'm sad.

I went to my eye doctor appointment today and they had to dilate my eyes and they felt really weird all day. They hurt, and my ankle hurt too, so I left work early even though I probably shouldn't have. My ankle has been hurting a lot lately, in the past few months I would run and then stumble or trip, and it would hurt for a little while, and then be fine, but since last week it's been hurting almost constantly. I can walk, but it hurts, and this morning the upper part of my limb was hurting as well. So I don't know what's going on there.

I got a book at the library, but it was the Spanish edition. I had ordered it and I was really sad when I saw that, because I really want to read it and now I have to wait even longer.

Ross's parents' house is so nice. We ended up having to take Kitty to Selah because he was being a brat over here and hissing at Tigger constantly. So off he went.

Escapades

Ross and I are at his parents' house in Moxee for the weekend because they went to the San Juan islands for the Fourth of July weekend. We will probably go see fireworks at the fairground since I want to see big fireworks this year. Hand ones are fun, but I prefer the big displays.

Doug is going to come over too and we are going to play survival horror games. Mostly Silent Hill, because I would like to see it but I don't really want to play it myself. It's less scary that way. Fatal Frame I and II weren't really that scary, but they're about ghosts which aren't too bad. Silent Hill has icky things in it so that's worse. But if I'm just watching it will be fine I think.

It's so nice here, I love air conditioning. Our apartment is really hot, but even that is nice compared to my work. There's only two fans and because all the equipment is on, it's really hot and never really cools down. Even in shorts it's so hot I can hardly work. I'm tired and sick feeling all the time, and I wish I didn't have to work right now while it's so hot, but I can't quit since I don't have another job. Hopefully it will cool off a little bit soon, and it's only for a couple of months. It probably won't get any hotter, at least.

The worst part is when I am bleeding because then I have cramps and for some reason it always feels worse in the heat. I just feel heavy and tired and awful. I wish I could still take the medicine that let me not have it if I kept taking the regular pills, but since I have headaches they won't let me have it since I could have a stroke and go blind.

Tomorrow is my eye doctor appointment. I finally get to get new glasses, thanks to my grandma who generously gave me the money for the appointment and glasses. I am excited, these still I can wear but they constantly fall down my nose since they are so stretched out and old, especially in the heat.

After tomorrow I have a three-day weekend. I just have to get through tomorrow! I get paid tomorrow too, which is nice, except for the fact that all my money is gone to rent, bills, and groceries. I don't even have enough money for all of those. It's because I have to pay a hundred dollars more than usual for rent since Brian is moving out to the big house. We have to finish out the lease before we can move, too, so we don't have to pay two rents for July at least. Ross is paying my share of the deposit though, even though I already owe him too much money from when I didn't have a job, so I have to pay that back soon too. I'm never going to catch up! It's really hard. I wish I had some rich relatives. I have to start paying my loan that I got for school a year ago back in August, but I should have (I'd better have!) my financial aid for this year by then, and hopefully I can use a little extra of that (hopefully there is a little extra!) to catch up and start paying my bills. I've been trying to this whole summer but something always comes up.

Any kind rich random stranger who reads my blog, if you want to do a nice and generous good deed, you can send me money through Paypal! hoshi_interposed@yahoo.com

I don't really think anyone reads this, except Megan because she left a comment once (hi Megan!) but if some random person were ever to read it and be inspired by my sad and lonely ramblings... hahaha

Inadequate

I am super sad. I had to call out sick a day last week so on my check I didn't make very much money. I was hoping to have enough so I could buy some books this week but I didn't. Sad. I barely have enough for all my bills. I really wanted to read the new Kushiel's Legacy book that came out, the last one in the series. I guess it can wait a little bit though since I wouldn't be able to read it right off even if I did buy it, because I have a bunch of library books right now too. So I'll be patient for a little bit more.

I hope I can get more money sometime soon, because my glasses keep breaking. I took them in to be fixed last time and the optometrist said that I should just get new ones, these aren't going to last much longer. I want to get contacts but they are expensive, too, either way I have to get an eye exam again and the exam itself costs money too.

I like being independent, but at the same time I hate not having anything to fall back on. I don't have savings or insurance or anything. It's pretty depressing.

It's my fault though.

I hate complaining all the time when I write so I haven't written any posts in a while. I might not for a while again until good things happen again!

Frustration

I hate Macy's. I bought some jeans about a month ago, if not more, and left them there to be altered using my free service from having a platinum card, and then since no one ever called me to tell them they were ready, I called this week to see if they were ready. They were. Becky said no one had called me because they were training new people and the new people didn't really know everything yet. So when Ross went down there to spend his graduation gift card today, he went to pick them up, and they weren't there.

How do you lose a pair of jeans? I called, to find out, and Cheryl, this time, said that they must have gone back out because there's only one shelf for alterations, both incoming and outgoing.

How much more stupid can you get? First of all, if you're going to be dumb enough to put incoming and outgoing things on the same damn shelf, at least put a label or a bag or something to differentiate them! Second, wouldn't the seamstress know that they have already been altered because she just brought them back?

I'm incredibly angry.

Creativity

I really wish I had a sewing machine. The one I bought a while back broke, or at least never worked very well, and I want a good one. I always want to sew things, but when I read historical fiction that has people making their own clothes, I want to make clothes even more, and I don't mind sewing things by hand, it's not very hard, but it does take a very long time and it's hard on my eyes, even with glasses, I usually get headaches. Also there are never any patterns for things I would like to make, so I have to make them up myself, and sometimes that works better than other times. I also want to learn embroidery again, my mom taught me some things when I was really young and I could probably do it if I tried, but maybe not. I wish more people did this kind of thing these days. It seems sad that everything is done by machines now, when it's so pretty when done by hand.

Multiplicity

I was just remembering today a lot of the stories I wrote years ago and wishing that I still had them. I think they were all on the old computer that my dad bought. They must have been since that was the only computer we had, until I got back from Japan and Uncle Paul got the Dell computer for me. Unfortunately, though, that was the computer that Jennifer and her boyfriend got a virus onto somehow, and everything was gone from the computer by the time I got back from Japan. I lost all my stories and some other stuff that I had on there, it wasn't too important but the stories were. I mean, since it was from a long time ago it wasn't that good, but some of it was school assignments that I would like to have kept, and there were all the stories that I wrote that I could get ideas from to rewrite now, but they're all gone. It's really sad. I hate it when stuff like that happens. Ross lost his flash drive that had some of his writing stuff on there so that's what made me remember, and I keep thinking of little bits of stories that I wrote and I wish that I still had them somewhere.

Intrinsic

I’ve never liked yellow moons because they are too low and too bright and not at all what I think the moon should be like. They look scary, sickly almost, and they’ve always kind of freaked me out.

Space is kind of scary to think about in general. Sometimes I think I would like to be an astronomer, and study space and try to find solutions to overcrowding by colonizing space and finding new technology and all sorts of things like that, but then I think about how big space is, and how much of so many different things are out there, and I get a little scared because there’s just too much. It’s like the future, almost, it’s so vast with so many possibilities and things you don’t know about, so that if you think about it for too long it unnerves you.

Velocity

Ross and I had lunch at Dairy Queen today and when we got home we discovered that our lunch had been about 1780 calories worth of deliciousness. So he took me to work to get my bike, I had to leave it there yesterday since it was raining and I was wearing a dry-clean-only sweater, and I rode it down to Hollywood Video and Blockbuster to see if there were any good movies (there weren't) and then went back home. It was a really nice ride, since it was raining a little off and on, and really dark and cloudy but still nice.

I have to send my acceptance letter back to Central with $55 check. I wish you didn't have to pay just to be accepted, because you have to give a crapload of money to them anyway for the next four years, so it seems kind of overkill. But I will do it, I pretty much have enough money right now anyway. I'm just happy to be going back to school.

I really like my new computer. It has some things about it that are a little bit annoying, but for the most part it's really nice. The keyboard is really cool, too. So I'm glad I got it even though I have to pay it back superfast. I'm working on it.

Motivation

I'm so depressed. I had carefully planned out all the things I needed to use my money for, but then it all disappeared. I have about $15 in my bank account to last me until next Wednesday! I really have to be more careful, I don't know what happened. I thought I had enough money for everything but I guess I underestimated my money, when I thought I was overestimating. I'm usually really careful and I always have money left over, but this time I don't know what happened. So from now on I'm going to make sure I keep much better track and make better planning lists and not spend any extra money without accounting for it. I should get a banking book to keep track of it, or just write it in a little notebook, I have enough of them.

It's sad, too, I wanted to get pizza for dinner, that's why I checked. Of course, if I hadn't I'd be in trouble. I really wanted pizza though. Brian made "spaghetti" which was bowtie noodles with sauce. It's not spaghetti. Spaghetti is long skinny noodles. I hate it when people call things the wrong name. Anyway, his sauce is gross, and I don't really like just noodles with sauce. So I made myself soup and cheese and crackers, and then I had a doughnut because Ross bought doughnuts today, and then he looked at my plate and said, "So, cheese and crackers for dinner?", like I turned my nose up at his food. Excuse me for eating my own food in my own house. And he made a big deal about making dinner since we (I) make enough dinner for everyone most of the time. I don't think it's polite to only make dinner for two people if there's going to be enough for three, and just tell him he can't have any. That's rude. I spend a good amount of money on all the groceries, though, so don't just buy some crap sauce and think it makes up for that. And don't make a huge fucking mess on the stove I just cleaned and then get all affronted when I ask you to wipe it up. I mean, honestly.

So I'm really excited for when we move out. Except Ross didn't get the internship in Oregon, and I'm sad about that, even though I didn't want him to be so far away, but he wanted to get it and I wanted him to get it. He doesn't know what he's going to do and I don't want him to feel bad or in trouble about not finding an internship or anything. I worry about it because he can't even graduate unless he finds one. That would be really sad if they didn't let him graduate after he did all the work, just because of a dumb internship. Especially because it's partially the fault of the graphic design program's being poorly structured that he's having trouble.

I have to write a letter to Mrs Okada about going straight into third-year Japanese, I was looking through the textbooks again and they both look pretty easy, but second year looks especially easy. So I definitely want to start at third year. I really hope I can go to school because even with doing more writing and sewing I am very bored. Work is okay, but it's not school. I need something to stimulate my mind. I've been reading tons of books but that isn't enough, in fact it only makes it worse if there are students in the books.

I am starting my new work schedule tomorrow. Thursday and Friday I'm going in from 11 until closing, 5:30, but after that I will be doing 11:30 to 5:30 for the forseeable future, and then I don't know what. So, I have to start going to bed earlier.

Mistaken

I realized that I actually missed some pretty important stuff at the end of what I thought were filler episodes. So I downloaded Bones and House, watched the last five minutes of each, and freaked out. Then I found the previews on Youtube and I take back what I said before, the writers really know how to turn the show around. I hope that Booth doesn't die, but I'm sure he doesn't because if he did there wouldn't be a Season Four, because Bones needs Booth, and also, they would all be mourning in the season final, and it doesn't look like that. Also, main characters usually don't die.

Rebellion

I stopped watching both Bones and House, my two favorite TV shows and the only ones I watch regularly, really at all, tonight because I was bored. I love those shows, and I used to really enjoy watching them, but lately the episodes are boring, strained almost, and they are funny, still (House was especially good last week) but at the same time they're not as captivating as they used to be, they're hardly even interesting at all. Bones, with a few exceptions (like last week's episode) is a lot of silly cases that don't have strong characters or plotlines that keep you watching, and House is just innuendo and over-the-top scenarios that are pretty boring.

I'm getting tired of TV. I know Bones is going to continue the Gormagon storyline, but I think only in the last episode of the season. I don't know what they're going to do on House but hopefully it gets more interesting. I have tons of books to read, writing that I've been looking at/working on (mostly waiting for my new computer) and other things to do, but sometimes it's nice to watch TV so hopefully they don't fail me now.

Redundance

Without asking, or even telling us, Brian brought home a giant entertainment center from his parents' house. It isn't going to fit in our living room, at least not without a LOT of moving things around that Ross and I don't have time for, and that one person can't do alone, and the displacement of stuff that there is just no other place for. So I'm pretty annoyed because it's super rude to do something like that without consulting the other people you live with. I got even madder because he just stood around when he saw that it wouldn't fit and said, "haha I guess it is kind of big, I guess I shouldn't have just said yes without thinking". You think?

Maybe I'm being too harsh, but we don't need an entertainment center, and there is already a ton of junk lying around this apartment that hasn't been put away, and we moved in March. There are tons of boxes that need to be broken down and taken out, and they are mostly his boxes. Ross and I have already done ours, the week after we moved in. Even if I did want to help him break them down, I can't drive them to a box dump, since we can't throw them in our trash, so I'm not much help there. I shouldn't have to help anyway, they aren't my boxes. They need to go. Also he leaves messes in places, doesn't do the dishes very often unless they've sat there for a while, and doesn't really take turns cleaning off the counter and sweeping. I've tried to drop hints politely, but there's really not too much else to do besides come out and say it. I don't want to start an argument or get him mad or anything, so I don't know.

So for now, I guess the entertainment center is just going to sit by the boxes until someone (not me) feels like moving it. Maybe I'll just start bringing home random crap and leaving it in the main area. No, I hate looking at clutter so I wouldn't do that.

In better things that happened today, I got a new computer. Actually, Ross got it for me from Newegg, using a Preferred Account which he signed up for. It has no interest for six months so I need to mostly pay it down by then. It was pretty cheap, only $740 and then I got a Microsoft Office 2007 for $129. I'm going to use it as my school/writing computer until this one dies, and this one for watching things and playing games. It's too bad though, that one has 200 GB hard drive so I could just throw everything on there, but I love this computer and I would miss it. It's still got plenty of life left (minus the battery which is going quick) and I like using it. The screen is really big and nice, too. I didn't really need need a new computer, but I wanted one that I could carry around easily for when I start school. This one is a little big, and it's been bumped into things a couple of times so I don't want to put undue stress on it by carting it around. This one is a little lighter and smaller so it'll be easier to take with me. Also, it's a VAIO. I've wanted one of those forever. It's white, too, I like that because I am sick of black computers. I like bright ones.

I got to see my kitty today, too, I rode my bike down to Shanelle's apartments, which was a feat since it was super windy and cold. Washington weather is dumb. I miss my 93 degree springs. Oh well. Anyway, kitty is good and happy and not fighting the other kitty, so yay.

Creativity

Megan said there should be a netlibrary, like Netflix for books. That's the most awesome thing I've heard in ages. I wonder why someone doesn't start that. They have Netflix and Gamefly, I would love to subscribe to a netlibrary. I don't know if it would be something that a lot of people would like to do, but definitely people who like to read and don't have money to buy a new book every week, or who live in an area without a library, or a big library. For the price of one new book each month, you could borrow so many books at a time, and just send them back when you finish them and get new ones. It would be really cool!

Apparently they do have something like that (looked online), it's called Book Swim. I wonder if it's any good. I'll have to look and see.

We are house-sitting for Ross's parents this weekend. It's nice and quiet here. I wish they had a pool, though, I really want to go swimming!

Worrisome

I have bad dreams a lot. I hate them, who wouldn't? I don't know how to make them stop, though. I try not to watch or read stuff that will scare me, I even stopped playing Fatal Frame, even though I didn't have any bad dreams while I was playing it. I have always just had them randomly, not necessarily after seeing or reading something scary. It's hard to clear them out of my mind, too. So maybe Tetris will help.

I got my tax rebate. Sadly, it was only three hundred dollars. I thought I would qualify for the six hundred dollar rebate, since I made so much money last year. But no, I did not. Oh, well, it's okay. I have to give 150 to Ross for the money I owe him (I owe him a lot of money). But then I think I will go shopping at Macy's with some of it. It will be nice to shop, I haven't in a while.

Exacerbation

Central is giving me all kinds of problems with my school applications. First I have the wrong tax form, then I filled it out wrong, then after they told me to have my mom mail in one copy with her information, and me turn in one with my information, they sent back my mom's because it wasn't filled out completely. I'm not going to give up this year because of their stupidity, though. I really want to go to school, especially since I didn't even get to finish this year. That was my fault, mostly, but still. I miss school.

Ellensburg is really nice, too, even if I can't have my cat here. I had to take him back to Shanelle's yesterday, since Ross and Brian don't want to get evicted. Mostly Brian, Ross wasn't too bad about constantly asking me when he was going back. I don't want to get kicked out either, but he's my cat and when we moved in I said I was keeping him. I miss him a lot. I'll get to see him every week, but still. Sadness.

The rent money from my dad finally got here, so yay, I can pay Ross back. I'll be able to pay my own rent for June and July, at least. It works out nicely because I get paid on the 5th and the 20th, and Ross has it set up to pay the rent with his credit card, so I just pay him back later in the day after I get my check in the bank. After he finds his internship I'm probably going to just rent a room with someone who already has a house that allows pets. I just want one year at Central, after all this fighting to go there, but I don't want to be away from him for too long, either.

I was looking at my Amazon wishlist today and it made me sad. There are a lot of books I want, but I haven't been buying books for a long time, so I think I should start getting some when I have a little more money. I love books. My list is bigger than ever, too. I keep adding things I just want to read, not necessarily buy, but since the library here isn't that great I have to read things somehow.

Cascade

Today was a good day, but I think I got sick from a strawberry smoothie from Arby's. It was really good, if a little sweet, but I think it was too thick. Ross was really nice and brought it for me, but he got stuck in traffic. I felt really bad to take him away from his work. Then of course I had pizza for dinner so hopefully that won't make me more sick. I feel better though. Yummy pizza is yummy.

Tomorrow I have to work at Model KE from 9-12, and then I kiosk at Fred Meyer from 12:30 to 2:30. I really don't want to kiosk anymore, because it's boring, but at the same time I like it because if I can get people to subscribe it's really good, really easy money, but if I just stand there for two hours and no one subscribes, it's a waste of time. So we'll see what tomorrow is like.

I'm watching Law and Order now. I haven't watched TV all week, except Bones and House on Monday. I used to watch Without a Trace and Law and Order during the day, when I didn't have a job, and although it is better to be doing something productive than watching TV all day, I really miss watching Without a Trace.

Interval - When Blogger wouldn't let me post

The Blogger people think I have a spam blog, so I can’t write properly until they review it. I don’t know why it would seem like a spam blog, I don’t have any links or nonsensical content, I write in proper sentences, and maybe I ramble a little, but not too much. Geh.

Ross came back today and it was fun. He seems to have had a good time on his trip, he showed his portfolio and his resume. I hope he can get a good job at one of the firms he wants to work at, like Dark Horse. I think he’s really talented and would do a good job there, but I think he should look into advertising firms, too, for sure, because he does really awesome ads that look real. He’s super talented. I’ll be sad if he finds a good place that is far away though, because then I won’t get to see him very often. When the lease on the apartment is up, in July, I can move, but not until then.

I’m definitely going to move out in July. I really like the apartment, and the rent is pretty cheap, but they don’t allow pets and it’s risky to keep a cat if we are in danger of getting caught and definitely fined, possibly evicted. I would feel bad if that happened, but I really like my cat and I’m going to keep him as long as I can. I just hope I can find a good place to live that allows pets and doesn’t charge too much. I’m going to have to work a lot and save up my money for moving later in a few months and for paying the pet deposit. If I’m on my own I can easily rent a room with one of the many college students around here, since I’ll be a college student too. As long as they’re quiet and the room is pretty big, I’ll be fine. Most houses allow pets so that would be a good idea.

Tonight we went to Red Robin for Jim’s birthday party. It was pretty fun, I never used to like going out to places with big groups but Ross’s friends (my friends too, now) are funny and not intimidating so it’s okay to hang out with them. I don’t like being around a lot of people for a long time though, even though I should be used to it by now. I’d rather just read or something, most of the time. It was fun tonight, though, except for when Ross took my ID card and hid it and then passed it around the table and everyone knew where it was except me! Sadness. I finally got it back, though, and now it is safe in my wallet.

Jeannette gave me a corsage that she made at her work, it’s super pretty. It’s one of the yellow carnations with a pink bleed, I really like the two-colored carnations. When I get married I want to have some of them in my bouquet/flower wreath. I don’t like veils so I am just going to have a flower wreath tiara. I want to have stargazer lilies, irises, and the pretty carnations for flowers. I don’t really like any small flowers, except cherry blossoms, but you can’t really pick those, so I’ll just have to use smaller ones for the wreath. I’m kind of strange in that I don’t want a big wedding, just a tiny ceremony in the courthouse with the minimum required number of witnesses, and then a big party all dressed up. I want to get dressed up and have the reception and throw the bouquet and everything, but I don’t like the idea of having the actual wedding ceremony in front of a bunch of people. Talking in front of people is hard for me anyway, but saying private stuff, there’s no way. Besides it’s more expensive, and I want a little, quiet wedding. Ross and I were talking about it earlier, also what we want to do for the honeymoon. I sort of forced him into talking about it, I like to talk about stuff like that sometimes but he just goes along with it.

I’m looking at Penny Arcade comics. We were talking about our favorite ones at dinner and I couldn’t remember all the funny ones I liked, so I’m going back and looking at some of the old ones. Unfortunately they don’t really want to load so I just gave up on looking at them. Hopefully the non-loading isn’t permanent.

Brian is playing a Dragon Ball Z game for the Wii, and he’s just started to complain about the controls. Every time he plays the Wii, usually Smash Brothers Brawl, he always complains about how he can’t do the controls, and it gets kind of annoying to hear over and over. I’m the most hand-eye-coordination-challenged person out of everyone I know, and I can do it okay. I don’t know if no one else is annoyed by his attitude, or they just don’t say anything, but it bothers me a little.

Everyone’s just kind of doing their own thing now. I have an interview at the Super 1 Foods tomorrow, at 10:00 and even if we left right now we wouldn’t get home until almost 1:00. I have to get up at 9:00, so I’m going to see if Ross wants to leave. I’m not too tired, but I will be in the morning. Of course I’m not doing anything else on Sunday so I probably will just go back home and go to bed.

Tomorrow I have to call Shanelle, too, and tell her not to come get Copernicus. Although she will probably want her cat carrier back soon so I maybe will just let her come by and then give it to her. I don’t want to have Copernicus go anywhere because I missed him too much.

Allotment

Finally my Blogger account has been reactivated. They didn't even send me an e-mail to tell me I could post again, so it's a good thing I kept checking.

Rurutia's new mini-album came out yesterday and I was able to download it today. I'm really excited about it even though there are only two new songs on it. I'm kind of sad because it's been a long time since her last release, which was also a mini-album, but it had three new songs, at least, and then still it's just another mini-album. So hopefully she will release an album soon. I'm sure the songs will be really good, though, they always are. I can't listen right now though because Brian is watching Blade, which is loud and yucky. I don't like vampires. But I always watch TV so I don't mind if he is watching something.

My job is going really well. It's easy, moderately fun, and low-key so I can wear anything I want to. Not short shorts or revealing clothes, but that's okay because I don't wear stuff like that anyway, but I'm happy that I can wear all the clothes I like that I haven't been able to wear for my other jobs. Also I get a lot of hours, almost 25 a week, so I will make pretty good money. Things are going super well so I'm happy.

Ross is looking for an internship, he might have to go far away. It's really sad, when he went on vacation last year with his mom and Jarrett, I missed him so much, and that was only for two weeks. So when he's gone for ten weeks, that will really suck. I'm hoping he can get one kind of close so I can see him on the weekends, but he has to go where he finds something. So I hope he can get a good internship that he really wants to have. I hope I will be okay at night, I'm not too good with staying alone at night.

Tax rebate time is coming up, I hope I will get the $600 rebate. I need to pay Ross back for all the money he's loaned me to help me out when I didn't have a job. It's all on his credit card, but I feel bad that I owe him so much money. I will be able to start paying him back pretty soon, though. I just feel bad, almost like he's secretly mad at me.

I made Creamy Broccoli flavor of Tuna Helper for dinner, and it tasted good but it feels kind of yucky in my stomach right now. I think it was too creamy. I don't really like it that much but there wasn't that much else to eat. I have been picky lately but at the same time less picky. Mostly I'm just worried about eating unhealthy stuff but since I am riding my bike all the time that doesn't worry me too much anymore, since I sleep so late that I don't eat breakfast. So I can have the occasional milkshake and/or hamburger and fries.

I think I want some ice cream. I have some in the freezer. Slow-Churned Light Raspberry Dark Chocolate Chunk, Haagen-Daaz lemon sorbet, fudge bars, fruit popsicle bars, banana-fudge ice cream bars, and then Ross's Klondike ice-cream sandwiches. Haha. I love ice cream. Maybe I will get some later when my stomach feels better.

Ineptitude

Today I was looking around at old journals and I found the journal of someone I used to be friends with. Currently she is going to college and studying Chinese, among other things. I was frustrated, mostly at myself, because in high school she was lazy and didn't like to do her work or study, and yet here she is, in college and doing well, studying the things I want to study. I was the one who studied really hard and had big plans for college and my future, and I haven't even gone to college yet.

So, I decided that for sure I will go to Central this year, even if it means being separated from Ross for a little bit. We're semi-engaged right now, and talking about making it official later this year, and we can be separated for a few days a week, it's not that bad. I hate not being with him every day, but I really want to go to Central and if he has to work in Seattle, then he does. He might be able to find an internship in this city, though, and then we could still live together while I go to school and then move to Seattle eventually when I graduate, since I have to go to graduate school for Library Science at University of Washington, anyway. I'm going to try to finish my undergraduate degree as quickly as possible. I'm just going to take the classes I need, no extras, and I think that way I can maybe finish in three years. I've wasted enough time!

Tonight will be nice and quiet; everyone is going to Jason's birthday party and they might stop by here afterwards, but Brian and Marie will be there until late and then maybe Marie will stay here tonight. That would be nice, the more people the better. I get scared too easily, it's not even scared, really, just kind of uneasy at being the only person home. The city I live in is pretty nice and not too dangerous, but still. Kitty isn't much help, he just kind of lays around. I'm sure if someone did break in or something he would run and hide, or just sit there still. This is why I want a dog. At least it would bark to warn me, and possibly try and attack. Someday when Ross and I live in a house, I want to get a big dog, like an Akita, a husky/wolf mix, a Great Dane, or something like that, but as soon as we move to a different apartment I am going to get a small dog that can live in an apartment, like a Corgi or something. I really like dogs, I wish I could have one now but it's risky enough just having a cat here. Dogs have to go outside sometimes, and I would definitely get caught.

I am listening to Takahashi Hitomi's latest album, it isn't very good. The songs are okay to listen to but they aren't something I want to really listen to more than once. It's too bad, her first singles were really good and the first album had a lot of good songs on it, too. It seems like the more she releases, the worse it gets. None of it is actually bad, I'm sure there are people who like the type of music she sings, but it is different from how she started. I wish she had stuck to songs like that, a sort of pop-rock mix (I really like music but I'm bad at classifying it). There are only one or two songs on the album that I like enough to keep, but that's okay, some albums I listen to without keeping anything. I'm pretty picky.

I have lots of books to read, and I haven't played Tetris yet today. Since Ross is gone I can play all the Tetris I want, haha.

Fortitude

Today I left at noon to get all my errands done and I managed to get back right at one. That's one of my favorite things about this town, it's pretty small and I can get around town, even on my bike, really quickly. I love riding my bike, too, it's good exercise and it makes me remember good times when I was a kid, and when I lived in Japan, and rode everywhere on my bike. The only thing is that it gets pretty windy here so it can be hard to ride sometimes, especially since it's still a little chilly here.

Today I went to the Daily Record to get my check, kiosking pays pretty well, as long as I can sell the subscriptions, then took it to the bank and then I rode around looking for a store that I saw a while back with cute clothes in the window. When I found it I was pretty disappointed, though, it was super tiny and didn't have a lot of cute things there. So I left, and then I went to the library, but they were closed. I knew that, too, but I just forgot until I got there. I'll have to go tomorrow, I have some books on hold and I want to look at the YA fiction again. I don't know what it is, even though I'm 21 I still like to read YA novels. I seem to be able to still identify with teenagers though, even though I'm older. They just don't write the kind of books I like to read about adults, at least not most of the time. Then I went to Safeway, I had promised to bring kitty home a treat (although he probably didn't understand) but I felt bad about leaving him! So I got some giant, soft, delicious cheese bagels, and candy (the delicious sour Twizzler bites and the ones that have fruit filling) and then kitty treats and wet cat food. He usually eats dry food but sometimes as a treat I get him the little pouches. I didn't even notice that the treats I got were for tartar and plaque control, but it's good they are since I've noticed his breath is a little stinky when you get up close, and some of his teeth are kind of blackish. Poor kitty. I hope he doesn't have any teeth pain. If he did he'd probably let me know a little, but he's pretty quiet and playful so I think he's okay. He doesn't seem to be in any pain.

This just in: I have found a job! I was watching Without a Trace (the reason why I wanted to get home by one) and the cleaners called me to let me know that they wanted me to come on board. That makes me so excited! I really wanted to work there because they have a relaxed atmosphere and no dress code, really, and it seems pretty fun. The people who work there are nice, too. So I finally have a job and I start on Monday. I'm so happy, the search is over! I have some applications out, and I had an interview at Bi-Mart, but they have a strict dress code and I would have to buy some pants, so if I can get by with just the cleaners then I will.

Mariners game is on now, I hope they will win it today. They've been doing really well, I'm so excited. I hope they can make it to the playoffs this year. I don't know that much about baseball still, although Ross is trying to teach me stuff, and I know some, I can follow the game on TV but not the radio. It's really interesting, especially how the game can turn around instantly. The games are really fun to watch, though, even if they lose they still play a really good game most of the time.


I don't know what I should do today, this is my last weekend not working so I want to spend it relaxing. I will try to do some sewing maybe since I have a lot of stuff to make, and I want to read some of my books. I have a lot of books piling up that I want to read, and more that I want to buy. I cleaned yesterday so I don't have to today, hooray, and I'm planning to go have dinner at Kiku-chan's since I'm alone and haven't eaten there in a long time. I just got paid so I have money for it. I feel kind of bad that Ross can't go too but he will eat out in Seattle, I am sure. So I will have a delicious dinner and then go shopping with Ross when he gets home tomorrow. I love going grocery shopping together, he is always really funny and I like planning out meals together and everything.

Kitty is so cute and adorable today. he slept on my bed all night and then when I woke up he cuddled with me until I got up, and then he sat in the bathroom while I took a shower, which he likes to do for some reason. I think he likes the sound of the water. Then he kept following me around and jumping up on me for petting whenever I stopped walking. I really don't want him to leave again since it seems like he doesn't get too much attention there. I'm going to try my hardest to keep him here. I just hope we don't get evicted, but it's not too likely that I will get caught, I think, since the people who lived here before us had two cats, for a longer time than we will be here, and they also know people who have cats. The only problem is that he likes windows, and he tries to get in the windows. I have closed the blinds by putting stuff on them, but he can still knock them down if he really wants to. So I'm lucky that management is a mile away on another property. There are maintenance people who come by during the day to do repairs and stuff, but not that often. Also the guys are pretty nice and I always say hi to them so maybe if they do catch kitty I can convince them not to tell. He's really quiet, so I hope it will work out okay. If we do get caught, I can always say that someone left him there for the night and I was going to move him in the morning, and I will probably just have to pay a fine. I hope it's okay. I really don't want to give him up again, I really need him to be here. He keeps me company and he's so cute.

Sometimes he bites me really hard though. I'll be petting him, and he'll be purring up a storm, and then all of a sudden he latches on to me and won't let go. He's not doing it to be mean, but he gets a little carried away. He ripped one of Ross's shirts that I was wearing the other day. It was so big on me that he just got the sleeve but he put a huge hole in the sleeve with his fangs. I'm glad he doesn't have claws because then I'd be a lot worse off. He just has back claws but he can do a good amount of damage with those, too.

I want to play a video game but I only have Magna Carta and Fatal Frame right now, and there's no way I'm playing Fatal Frame right now. I only play it when someone else is here and since Ross isn't even going to be home tonight, I'm going to wait. I could play Magna Carta, though, it's a lot of fun. The only problem with it is that I'm not too sure where I'm going all the time so I have to be careful or else I get hopelessly lost.

Time for the Mariners game!

Silhouette

Tonight Ross left for Seattle; he had to go to a meeting for his portfolio class. I hope he can meet a lot of prospective employees, I think he's really talented. Actually, everyone does. His designs are pretty sweet. Although I am happy that he's away pursuing his future, I'm pretty bored (and scared!) being home alone. I miss him a bunch already, we have lived together the whole year and a half we've been together, and we're rarely separate. So it's sad. I hope he's okay, too. He was having stomachache earlier and we had sex so that probably didn't make it any better!

I brought Copernicus home from the cat-sitter, so that he could keep me company. It's going pretty well so far, he's cuddling with me (and getting his tail in my ice cream), but I feel bad because I don't have any of his toys. He was chasing a sock a while ago and playing with a little bead bracelet, but he gets bored pretty easily. Now he is chilling on the back of the couch watching TV with me. We like crime dramas a lot. Last night he made me a little mad, though, right when he got home the first thing he did was pee on my bed. I can't blame him, though, he was stressed from moving and Jamie's kids were trying to play with him. They're pretty wild, though, I'd probably pee too if I had a ten-year-old girl leap on top of me. I forgave him, because he's usually super well-behaved, and I love him. He's really cute.



I had two job interviews this week. Yesterday and today, and I haven't heard anything yet. Why is it so hard to find a job here?! I've lived here for two months almost and I've had at least ten interviews and nothing yet, except a babysitting job here and there, which does not do much for paying the rent; it barely keeps me fed. I have a kitty to take care of, too, and he can get kind of expensive. So I need to find some work soon, but it's getting frustrating. I do like the break, though. I stay home and keep the house clean, cook dinner, ride my bike around on errands, library trips, small grocery shopping, and just for fun, and watch lots of Law and Order and Without a Trace reruns. I have lots of time to read, watch anime that I've been downloading like crazy, do sewing, and look around online for all the things I want that I can't buy! Sadness. Well, at least my dad is helping me with rent!

There are some really good shows that I've been watching lately. First of all, the shows that were on hold because of the Writer's Strike are coming back (finally!) and I've been looking forward to new episodes of Bones and House for ages. The only bad thing is that they aren't making up for lost time and are just going to air a few episodes and then be done with the season. That makes me sad; I feel somewhat cheated. However, I am happy that the writers will be treated better. I agreed with the strike in principle, I just missed watching my favorite shows. Also there are a lot of good animes airing lately, and some good old ones. I recently have been watching Chrno Crusade and Shakugan no Shana, which are both really interesting even though they are a bit old. I can't believe I didn't want to watch Shakugan no Shana when it began, but I'm glad I finally started it. Jim says Chrno Crusade is super depressing but after watching all of Key's stuff, I'm pretty sure I can handle it. Stupid Wikipedia for posting Clannad spoilers on the first page and ruining it for me. The best thing right now though, is a show that just started, Nijuu Mensou no Musume, or, The Daughter of Twenty Faces, which is about a famous thief who kidnaps (sort of) a girl who is poorly treated by her family and wants to run away (I guess it isn't really kidnapping since she goes with him willingly) and their merry exploits. It's really interesting and Hirano Aya voices Chiko, the main character, and so I am really excited about it. The first episode was awesome, and I have the second episode waiting on my computer.

I'm super poor, but I want new books to read so I am going through my Amazon wishlist trying to find things that are really cheap. I am annoyed because even if you buy books from the same person they don't combine shipping, even though it doesn't cost them anywhere near that to ship a few books! I don't mind getting used books, they're usually in really good condition. I wish the library here was better. I miss the giant library in Phoenix, of course it isn't to be expected that the library here would be as big, but they have none of the books I want to read. It's sad.

I hope Brian comes home soon. He's a bit frustrating sometimes, but he's nice and it would be nice to have someone else here. The people next door are coming and going and the loud noises of the door keeps making me jump. I worry that they're going to hear my cat, so it's good that he meows quietly and not often. We aren't allowed to have pets here, and I don't want to get evicted, that's why I have him living with a cat-sitter. But I really don't like him there, he came home begging to be petted and all over me and Marie, who likes him a lot too, and he is more affectionate than normal (he's always sweet though), so I worry that he isn't getting enough attention there. I hope he'll be okay. . I wish I could just keep him here, but Brian doesn't like him very much. I almost don't care, but I should be nice to my roommates. He's been friends with Ross for ages, and I like him okay, but his type of personality gets on my nerves a bit. I wish he would buy toilet paper, too! He is lazy and doesn't help with chores and doesn't buy things he should contribute. His girlfriend, Marie, who stays here with us sometimes, always picks up what he doesn't do, and I feel bad because she shouldn't have to. I really like her, she is one of my few friends here. Mostly it's just her and Jeannette.

I miss my friends from high school, I know it's only natural that people fall out of touch, and I did move really far away, but I know that they're all in college, halfway done, and I'm just here, not even in school yet, no job, et cetera. I have a good life but I feel that I'm not really contributing anything. I like to write and Ross says that I am really good at it, but I lack substantial enough ideas to write a complete story, and drive to finish a complete piece. Hopefully writing a blog will help me work on those skills. I have tons of blank journals (I collect all kinds of stationary), but I can't bring myself to write in any of them. I like writing by hand, but if you do it online you can have a cool layout. Haha.

I suppose I should do something besides watch crime dramas all night. It's not my fault they marathon them! I wanted to do some sewing, but now I don't really feel like it. I have to be in just the right mood, even thought I really like doing it. Probably I'll do some reading, and keep looking online for new job posts. For now I am going to brush my teeth, since no job=no medical insurance=super cavities. Geh.