Escapades

Ross and I are at his parents' house in Moxee for the weekend because they went to the San Juan islands for the Fourth of July weekend. We will probably go see fireworks at the fairground since I want to see big fireworks this year. Hand ones are fun, but I prefer the big displays.

Doug is going to come over too and we are going to play survival horror games. Mostly Silent Hill, because I would like to see it but I don't really want to play it myself. It's less scary that way. Fatal Frame I and II weren't really that scary, but they're about ghosts which aren't too bad. Silent Hill has icky things in it so that's worse. But if I'm just watching it will be fine I think.

It's so nice here, I love air conditioning. Our apartment is really hot, but even that is nice compared to my work. There's only two fans and because all the equipment is on, it's really hot and never really cools down. Even in shorts it's so hot I can hardly work. I'm tired and sick feeling all the time, and I wish I didn't have to work right now while it's so hot, but I can't quit since I don't have another job. Hopefully it will cool off a little bit soon, and it's only for a couple of months. It probably won't get any hotter, at least.

The worst part is when I am bleeding because then I have cramps and for some reason it always feels worse in the heat. I just feel heavy and tired and awful. I wish I could still take the medicine that let me not have it if I kept taking the regular pills, but since I have headaches they won't let me have it since I could have a stroke and go blind.

Tomorrow is my eye doctor appointment. I finally get to get new glasses, thanks to my grandma who generously gave me the money for the appointment and glasses. I am excited, these still I can wear but they constantly fall down my nose since they are so stretched out and old, especially in the heat.

After tomorrow I have a three-day weekend. I just have to get through tomorrow! I get paid tomorrow too, which is nice, except for the fact that all my money is gone to rent, bills, and groceries. I don't even have enough money for all of those. It's because I have to pay a hundred dollars more than usual for rent since Brian is moving out to the big house. We have to finish out the lease before we can move, too, so we don't have to pay two rents for July at least. Ross is paying my share of the deposit though, even though I already owe him too much money from when I didn't have a job, so I have to pay that back soon too. I'm never going to catch up! It's really hard. I wish I had some rich relatives. I have to start paying my loan that I got for school a year ago back in August, but I should have (I'd better have!) my financial aid for this year by then, and hopefully I can use a little extra of that (hopefully there is a little extra!) to catch up and start paying my bills. I've been trying to this whole summer but something always comes up.

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I don't really think anyone reads this, except Megan because she left a comment once (hi Megan!) but if some random person were ever to read it and be inspired by my sad and lonely ramblings... hahaha