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Tonight Ross left for Seattle; he had to go to a meeting for his portfolio class. I hope he can meet a lot of prospective employees, I think he's really talented. Actually, everyone does. His designs are pretty sweet. Although I am happy that he's away pursuing his future, I'm pretty bored (and scared!) being home alone. I miss him a bunch already, we have lived together the whole year and a half we've been together, and we're rarely separate. So it's sad. I hope he's okay, too. He was having stomachache earlier and we had sex so that probably didn't make it any better!

I brought Copernicus home from the cat-sitter, so that he could keep me company. It's going pretty well so far, he's cuddling with me (and getting his tail in my ice cream), but I feel bad because I don't have any of his toys. He was chasing a sock a while ago and playing with a little bead bracelet, but he gets bored pretty easily. Now he is chilling on the back of the couch watching TV with me. We like crime dramas a lot. Last night he made me a little mad, though, right when he got home the first thing he did was pee on my bed. I can't blame him, though, he was stressed from moving and Jamie's kids were trying to play with him. They're pretty wild, though, I'd probably pee too if I had a ten-year-old girl leap on top of me. I forgave him, because he's usually super well-behaved, and I love him. He's really cute.



I had two job interviews this week. Yesterday and today, and I haven't heard anything yet. Why is it so hard to find a job here?! I've lived here for two months almost and I've had at least ten interviews and nothing yet, except a babysitting job here and there, which does not do much for paying the rent; it barely keeps me fed. I have a kitty to take care of, too, and he can get kind of expensive. So I need to find some work soon, but it's getting frustrating. I do like the break, though. I stay home and keep the house clean, cook dinner, ride my bike around on errands, library trips, small grocery shopping, and just for fun, and watch lots of Law and Order and Without a Trace reruns. I have lots of time to read, watch anime that I've been downloading like crazy, do sewing, and look around online for all the things I want that I can't buy! Sadness. Well, at least my dad is helping me with rent!

There are some really good shows that I've been watching lately. First of all, the shows that were on hold because of the Writer's Strike are coming back (finally!) and I've been looking forward to new episodes of Bones and House for ages. The only bad thing is that they aren't making up for lost time and are just going to air a few episodes and then be done with the season. That makes me sad; I feel somewhat cheated. However, I am happy that the writers will be treated better. I agreed with the strike in principle, I just missed watching my favorite shows. Also there are a lot of good animes airing lately, and some good old ones. I recently have been watching Chrno Crusade and Shakugan no Shana, which are both really interesting even though they are a bit old. I can't believe I didn't want to watch Shakugan no Shana when it began, but I'm glad I finally started it. Jim says Chrno Crusade is super depressing but after watching all of Key's stuff, I'm pretty sure I can handle it. Stupid Wikipedia for posting Clannad spoilers on the first page and ruining it for me. The best thing right now though, is a show that just started, Nijuu Mensou no Musume, or, The Daughter of Twenty Faces, which is about a famous thief who kidnaps (sort of) a girl who is poorly treated by her family and wants to run away (I guess it isn't really kidnapping since she goes with him willingly) and their merry exploits. It's really interesting and Hirano Aya voices Chiko, the main character, and so I am really excited about it. The first episode was awesome, and I have the second episode waiting on my computer.

I'm super poor, but I want new books to read so I am going through my Amazon wishlist trying to find things that are really cheap. I am annoyed because even if you buy books from the same person they don't combine shipping, even though it doesn't cost them anywhere near that to ship a few books! I don't mind getting used books, they're usually in really good condition. I wish the library here was better. I miss the giant library in Phoenix, of course it isn't to be expected that the library here would be as big, but they have none of the books I want to read. It's sad.

I hope Brian comes home soon. He's a bit frustrating sometimes, but he's nice and it would be nice to have someone else here. The people next door are coming and going and the loud noises of the door keeps making me jump. I worry that they're going to hear my cat, so it's good that he meows quietly and not often. We aren't allowed to have pets here, and I don't want to get evicted, that's why I have him living with a cat-sitter. But I really don't like him there, he came home begging to be petted and all over me and Marie, who likes him a lot too, and he is more affectionate than normal (he's always sweet though), so I worry that he isn't getting enough attention there. I hope he'll be okay. . I wish I could just keep him here, but Brian doesn't like him very much. I almost don't care, but I should be nice to my roommates. He's been friends with Ross for ages, and I like him okay, but his type of personality gets on my nerves a bit. I wish he would buy toilet paper, too! He is lazy and doesn't help with chores and doesn't buy things he should contribute. His girlfriend, Marie, who stays here with us sometimes, always picks up what he doesn't do, and I feel bad because she shouldn't have to. I really like her, she is one of my few friends here. Mostly it's just her and Jeannette.

I miss my friends from high school, I know it's only natural that people fall out of touch, and I did move really far away, but I know that they're all in college, halfway done, and I'm just here, not even in school yet, no job, et cetera. I have a good life but I feel that I'm not really contributing anything. I like to write and Ross says that I am really good at it, but I lack substantial enough ideas to write a complete story, and drive to finish a complete piece. Hopefully writing a blog will help me work on those skills. I have tons of blank journals (I collect all kinds of stationary), but I can't bring myself to write in any of them. I like writing by hand, but if you do it online you can have a cool layout. Haha.

I suppose I should do something besides watch crime dramas all night. It's not my fault they marathon them! I wanted to do some sewing, but now I don't really feel like it. I have to be in just the right mood, even thought I really like doing it. Probably I'll do some reading, and keep looking online for new job posts. For now I am going to brush my teeth, since no job=no medical insurance=super cavities. Geh.